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Tuesday, May 22, 2012 @ 3:40 AM
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Tuesday, February 28, 2012 @ 12:57 PM
Love is like gambling.. Throughout these years of getting in and out of love, I came to realise that love is like gambling.. When you're lucky, you will get to meet someone who treats you nice and all. But when you're unlucky, you might meet someone who just isnt the right one no matter how much you think that person is. Let's just say you gamble to try your luck and see if you will win some money. But sometimes no matter how mny times you try your luck, you will still end up losing all the money you've got. So why not just dont gamble and save the money? In love, it's the same.. For example scenario 1, you love this guy for a long time. You've been closing your heart just for him, rejecting other guys who have been wooing you for all the while.. However, this guy didnt give you any answers and just leave you hanging there alone.. In the end, what you've got was a broken heart feeling mentally and physically tired. Think about it, isit worth it? This gamble shows you're unlucky to meet that someone who's purely there to make you grow from it and that is the reward you got from the bet for that round. Scenerio 2, same thing happened just that the ending is different. This guy you've been waiting for, gave you his love and you guys got together.. This is 1 of the gamble that shows you're lucky to meet that someone who's that "reward" that you got from this bet. By the way, I realised sometimes its best if humans dont chase after love but let love chase after you.. Maybe that way, you wont feel as tired. Anyway, this post is just my thoughts.. No offence and this has got nothing link to anybody. Thanks for reading. (: Happy Leap Year! |
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Wednesday, February 22, 2012 @ 1:34 PM
"All little girls deserve to be told they are pretty, even if they aren't." -Marilyn Monroe I remember throughout my coming 20 years of life, I have never really feel proud or confidence before. Because I grew up in an environment, which was filled with negative comments and pretty people around me. People would tell me: "Jo you'd become fatter than the last time i saw you." Though I did received some nice comments by my relative saying im getting prettier and prettier. But soon, I began to realised maybe because this is just another way of being nice by complimenting me. To be honest, when my bf or my ex bf or whoever who said im pretty, I would really be doubting them.. Wondering if its the fact or just like what i said above. I get alot from people saying, Girls should really have confidence in themselves, cause that really makes them look prettier. Well, I did listened to them.. So like after my ex bf when I really move on, I know its time for me to pick up myself, have more confidence and do better without him. I once saw this quote on the internet saying: "The best revenge is to live better than before". And I really did, I managed to move on and be back that cheerful and positive Joanne. I never felt more than happy than before. Im glad that my past relationship made me even stronger, happier and more independent than before. Slowly, I build up my confidence and began to ignore people who gave me negative remarks. Because I started to realised that this is me, people who mix with me wont mind my appearance. People who love me, will definitely love me for who I am. Though it will still make me feel down whenever I hear negative remarks, but I will just think it through and just start to ignore it. (: One of the reasons why people give you negative remarks is because they're jealous of you. So instead of letting them crash you down, why not let them see you're even better than before and just thank them for that remark that they had given you. (: Its true that I was a low self confidence girl before, however im different now.. I hope every girls out there will know that its not important how others look at you, but its how you look at yourself... till then.. -JOSW |
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Monday, February 20, 2012 @ 11:34 PM
  On 31st dec2011, I went out with that special person whom i stated in my last post. And.... We got together on 1st Jan 2012... Yes, like finally~ After so bloody long.. Our story goes like this.. I met him a long time ago(actually not that long afterall), since last year's june. I never thought i would fall for a person like him. Never would i thought that we would become friends. We started of as friends on the social network which is facebook. yah, i know very lame but he added me so i accepted. Then something happened so we got to know each other and we started texting.. Soon i went to hk for holiday before i left, he told me be careful and take good care of myself, ask me to check in on fb or whatever just to let him know im safe or contact him.. Not every part of hk has wifi and i didnt get autoroam so i can only contact him once i have wifi. So every night, i would go to the hotel lobby just to use the wifi and just to talk to him.. Every night before i head back to my hotel room, he would end his last msg with a <3 which is a heartshape. Slowly, i begin to fall for him without realising. until the last day when i was at hk international airport, i saw his fb status that says: " I still miss you, A" I got so so so so furious that i quarreled with him. on the plane back to sg, i wondered why will i even be so furios with him when its just a normal fb status. so i didnt bother much. then we didnt talk for a few days and then i started to realise i really do miss him. &thats when i feel that there's something really wrong with me, which is loving him. So there were a couple of times whereby we didnt contact and we contacted back with each other. but in between, that few months we didnt get to meet cause he was sooooooooooo busy. indeed~ Then before he enlisted, he went hk. So i told him the places of where to go to get good deals. When he was at hk, he didnt contact me like i do. Though i didnt bother much too~ haha! Until the day when he was at hk airport, he whatsapp-ed me. Once he touched down in sg, he contacted me again and added me on bbm. So from then on we chatted on bbm. He enlisted on 13th sept. From that day onwards, he send me "good morning" almost everyday. Everyday including weekends. At first i thought he chatted with me probably because he was bored in camp. but i was wrong. &then i realised, if one day he stop chatting with me i might go crazy. that was when i realised how much he had impacted in my life.. Slowly, i went to club just to see him. i know abit silly but that's the only way. But by going club, i know a bunch of awesome friends which are my party animals. (: So we met up on 22nd oct for swensens and 26th dec again for swensens... Butterflies in my stomach but i gotta act like nothing. i cant show him that i love him and put my arms all over him right.. thats definitely so not me~ 31st dec, our very first date.. then we got together on 1st jan at powerhouse which is the first place where we first met. Throughout this journey, it was a long and tough one. I got to bear with all the jealousy and angriness. jealous to see him dancing with other girls in club, angry cause he put me airplane all the time. but at the end, everything was worth it. on 1st jan after i became his gf, i kept smiling. that blissful and unbelievable feeling that i can never forget. thanks baby~ I love you |
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Tuesday, November 01, 2011 @ 6:33 AM
Well, life has been awesome for me. Like what you guys always say, filled with ups and downs. Sometimes when we are overly happy, something bad will just come bombing your life. That's life. Recently, I kept making myself improve and better. And naturally, I feel better about myself too. In another words, I feel more confident than before. Throughout these few months, I get to know alot of new friends, bought alot of branded stuff and found my old friends too. I'm glad life for me hasn't been really terrible. :) Last but not least, I realized I had fall for this special someone. But then I know at the end of the day, I know i gotta let him go. Cause in other people's eyes, he's a bad boy. But in my eyes, he's special. <3 till then! Signing off, JOSW, xx |
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Sunday, April 17, 2011 @ 9:00 AM
There's this question on my head that i would love to ask everyone, "Ever felt like you dont belong? " Well, I did........ I can be surrounded by a sea of people and not knowing who i am. For example, whenever i go club and sitted there feeling sober, i will look at the people at the dancefloor. I would be wondering, Who am i actually? Why do i go to club so often that now im getting sick and tired of it alr. Tired of going home late. On the way home the next morning after clubbing, i will ask myself why had i changed so much. Probably because im legal now or just im escaping from reality. Last night i went Powerhouse with my friends. I was feeling so depressed that i drank quite alot of alcohol and it kinda made me think negatively. Guess what, Someone puked on my whole body, so damnit lucky right. And when i smell that vomit smell on me, i went to the toilet to puke too. Cause the smell was overbearring. Like wtf. Lucky when i saw my friend in the toilet. Then when i look at myself in the mirror and asking myself this question:" who's this girl?". Seriously, the answer to myself was fuck you, fucking take off that mask. Then both me and my friend got out of the toilet and i started crying. My mind was filled wth my ex bf and myself. Embarrassing much by crying at powerhouse. My other friends then came to find me, comfort me and talk things through my head. I guess my confidence level is really damn low. When i head back into the club with my head clear, i took off my covered blouse as i was wearing a sleeveless dress inside of it. People who know me would know that i dont wear sleeveless cause i have a pair of flabby arms. While dancing, i suddenly had the guts to go up to the platform to dance. I have no idea where my guts came from. &Fyi, i think i dont dance well. In the past, i wouldnt give a damn to the clubbing nights ( ladies night/fri night/sat night). But now, whenever im home on either nights, i will feel very empty inside. Like i should be appearing at some club rather than home. Sigh~ Why am i like that now? Why do i feel like this? Why do i feel like i dont belong? fuck it. Thank you for those who were there for me last night at my most embarrassing moment of life.
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